I saw Susan for a coaching session yesterday and she greeted me with, “I hate you”, not once but 3 times in succession in case I didn’t here her. Read why she hates me below. She also gave me a minor heart attack when she sent me a picture from McDonalds. You can also see her team’s update below, including mine…
The most important thing I was reminded of this week is that it’s not what happens to you that matters, it’s how you interpret and handle what’s been thrown at you. I had several things go wrong this week that would have lead to marathon stress eating in the past. Think I am kidding? I had a 9 year old very loudly and quite dramatically “fire” me in the middle of McDonalds mid temper tantrum in regard to a denied ice cream cone, got caught walking through my house in my birthday suit by the LAST PERSON ON EARTH I’d want to ever see me naked, and got slammed with MAJOR financial stress and utter havoc due to unexpected, catastrophic home repairs. What saved me? I had my meals already laid out; I would have had to go out of my way to find crap and eat it. I also realized that all stress eating would do is make me fatter, it wouldn’t solve the issues that were making me nuts; the problems would still be there when I lifted my head from the feeding trough. (FYI- the naked escapade did freak me out a bit- I downed a half of bag of Pirate Booty before I became coherent and stopped muttering and shrieking and came to my senses, lol.) Being a part of the 7 Week Challenge also helped- I knew I had lots of eyes looking over my shoulder.
Another first, I was really annoyed with Peter and turned the negative emotions into a positive experience and strayed beyond my comfort zone. I was just about to go for my afternoon swim one day this week when I got a text from Peter telling me to come prepared for a light workout at our next session. Ughhh. I hate that. I am not sure why, but I do. It makes me uncomfortable and anxious, and makes me dread going to a session that I usually enjoy. Rational? No, of course not, but we aren’t always rational right? Instead of heading to the snack bar, I threw myself into the pool and found myself in a lap lane. Here’s the thing, I don’t do lap lanes. They intimidate me. I am a mediocre swimmer at best, and certainly not athletic. My endeavors at doing laps up until this time has been to slosh back and forth across the length of the pool, next to the actual lanes themselves; in my mind, the lanes are reserved for the no-nonsense athletic folks on a mission. Each lap is 25 yards; my max to date has been 4 laps across, and then some time treading water in the deep end. The pool was relatively deserted since the weather was sketchy, and the all the lanes were empty for a change. As I started my way across for the first lap, I was irritated with Peter and the whole concept of this challenge. The “Big Girl” in me was instructing me to tell him to “F*ck Off” and to pick up a pizza on the way home while I was at it. She also mentioned that I looked something akin to the sea creatures I once spotted surfacing on a whale watch, and that I should get out the lap lanes and stop making a spectacle of myself. Back and forth across the pool, the dark thoughts swirling around in my head were my only companions. The muttering eventually gave way when I started gasping for breath. How many laps was that? 5? Really? And nobody was watching anyway, a perfect day to venture into the hallowed lanes and see how many more I could actually do. Three more laps across and I was done, I had just swam 200 yards- I doubled my normal swim for a personal best and didn’t die- of fatigue or shame. I got out of the pool with spaghetti arms and wobbly knees, and now have a lot to think about in regard to my aversion to exercise and why I despise it.
The info below is my week at a glance. A better week than last. Still some room for improvement. My goal was to lose a minimum of 2 pounds per week- this week I achieved a loss of 4.2 lbs.
(7/20 – 7/26) 7 days, 35 points possible per category, 105 points maximum score:
- Eat 3 -5 healthy meals per day: 35/35
- Exercise 5 times this week, minimum of 5 minutes per day: 35/35
- Journal all meals, exercise, & stressors per day: 0/35
Total Score Earned: 70 points
Special Personal Goal: Do not eat crap from the snack bar while at the pool –Achieved this goal 5 out of 5 days.
Here are the positive things/changes that occurred this week:
- Always prepared for meals on the go- I did not get caught without a healthy meal or snack handy wherever I was.
- Stepped up my routine at the pool- more disciplined approach to exercising
- Reached out for support from the Challenge Team to avoid stress eating- Cyndie saved me from an all out binge the night I literally got caught with my pants down.
- On more than one occasion, did not give in to emotional eating despite being sorely tempted.
Norton’s walks are back on my schedule- another month of being yanked up and own hills by my own personal version of “Marmaduke
Stressors for the week: Similar to last week, while I did not find the time to actually journal the way I am supposed to- I was paying attention to how I was feeling when I did actually eat something I shouldn’t, or when I was very tempted to do so.
- Still adapting to a new job: new responsibilities, unfamiliar routines, getting to know personalities, kids testing limits and boundaries, kids adjusting to “Mom” being gone all day for the first time in their lives
- Financial- discovering that my home probably needs approximately $30K in immediate repairs- we will literally being flushing money down the toilet due to a septic system gone afoul.
- Chaos coming- major home repairs about to start- deck being ripped out, yard dug up, workmen descending, major mess and inconvenience…
- Frustration in regard to not being home enough to get anything done in my own house, or see enough of my family.
- Overwhelming desire to shove food in my mouth when what I really want is the cigarette I cannot have while working. The Nicoderm Patch does not completely curb my craving for nicotine.
- Peter. Told me that our next session will include a light workout. Not happy, in fact, feeling a bit petulant. What’s wrong with just coffee?
Weight on 7/19: 274 lbs / Weight on 7/19: 269.8 lbs,
Loss this week: 4.2 lbs – Week 2 of Challenge.
Total Challenge Loss: 6.4 lbs.
Total loss to date: 61.2 lbs.
And here’s Susan’s team’s update: Still waiting to hear from CW, Kaye, Karen, Matt and Elana
- Lose 10 pounds by 9/1/12 - Lost 2 lbs
- Food Journal Daily - Journaled 3 out of 4 days and was very aware of what I was eating
- Read in bed at night instead of Netflix-watching on laptop – helps me sleep better and cuts down on stress/anxiety - Achieved all 4 nights
- Just ordered a Fitbit and will follow my progress with this device - and become ”connected” with family/colleagues/friends who have the same device for added accountability. - This thing is SO cool. I’ll tell you more about it later, but just yesterday I logged all of my food and sleep on it. I slept w 96% efficiency last night…
- Take a regular lunch, away from my desk, at least 2 times a week – do something non-work related during this lunch - Check
- When entertaining for work or out socially, substitute at least one round of drinks with seltzer - I did my best on this one – only had one glass of wine with one client dinner, two with another very long dinner, and one night out with the biggest peer-pressure client I have. I did subsitutte at least two rounds with seltzer on this crazy evening. On the flip side of this wild night out, I did not give into hangover cravings. I had a whole wheat english muffin and a diet coke (I rarely drink soday at all but my favorite hangover cure is a regular coke – literally the only time I drink them – I hate the chemicals in dt coke, but it was a good substitution for me at the time) and then for lunch I would have usually let myself have a curative burger, but instead I had a few bites of tuna tartare and chicken paillard for lunch. Progress there!
- Bands five days a week - two out of four days
- Work out with a friend at least once a week – plan ahead and get it on the calendar! Not this week…
- Mix up work outs – spin, elliptical, ride bike outside, and what else? Focus on the fun in these varied work-outs. I did Spin, Elliptical, rode my bike, and took Fri off. Today I do spin and yoga.
- I’ve lost 2 pounds
- I’ve exercised 4 of 6 days
- Meal planning & journaling : Planning and journaling both breakfast & lunch Monday to Friday. No planning for Saturday – but I already have Sunday planned out.
- Do not miss any sessions of NRI three day a week work out (20 minutes plus warm up) I attended all three sessions and added one session at home.
- Increase step count on Saturday and Sunday to between 8,000 and 10,000 steps. I promise to accomplish this goal this weekend.
- Not eating after 7:00 pm I ate my last meal at 6:30 each night this weekend and did not snack after that.
- Drink 60 oz of water … Has not been a problem at all. I make sure to have at least 20 oz before I leave for work, which helps me reach my goal.
- Record all meals in a journal during or at end of day …. Has been a challenge because I could not decide where to record. Finally settled on a google doc, so I am hoping / planning on being better with this, but this is difficult for me.
- Do bands and physical therapy workout daily … Has been great to do. When I stick to my early morning exercise routine, I drink more water, eat a healthier breakfast and feel more alert and energetic throughout the day.
- Used the tracker for all my meals/ workouts.(stayed within calories)
- Ate veggies for snacks most days instead of chips
- Worked out with Peter once this week
- Take cold shower for 30 seconds every day (strengthens immune system and wakes your ass up Done, froze my ***** off!
- Contact one friend or business contact everyday. Check- some days 2 or 3
- Work out with 2 friends every week to add fun to band workouts. Did 3 this week
- Continue daily food journal and gratitude journal. Religiously